Being in an unfamiliar city all summer is a little like starting college over in a way. I don’t know that many people, it’s hard trying to meet people, but the Lord has really given me a handful of great friends here.
Being here has given me a new perspective on how I operate when it comes to my friends in Auburn though. I am so quick to search for more and more friends when I should be investing in the ones I have. Something I really struggled with freshman and sophomore year was wanting to be known and every now and then still struggle with.
That wasn’t really a problem I ever had in high school, I practically grew up with every single one of my friends. But when i got to Auburn I reaaally had to fight to find friends and I think that’s carried over into the past three years. The desire to continue finding more friends, to be known, to have a wide group of friends. But have each one of those friendships been deep? I don’t think so.
Yes, it’s great meeting new people, (it’s one of my favorite things) but there’s so much more value in having a few really deep, encouraging friendships than lots of acquaintances. The constant search of new friends turned into needing validation from the people around me, feeding an unhealthy desire, one that very evidently does not come from the Lord.
As I get ready for my last year at Auburn, very uninvolved for the first time since I’ve been in college, I’m excited to spend the year investing in the friendships I have along with making a few new friends along the way. The Lord has very evidently placed a love for freshmen on my heart, so I’m excited to see the way He uses that this year.
I think that being overly involved the past three years helped fuel that need to find validation in the world. I wouldn’t change any of that, but I wish I would’ve realized sooner how I was using opportunities the Lord gifted me with to find validation in the world rather than in Him.
There’s this song I learned way back when in Sunday School that all of this reminds me of. I’m not sure of the name, my best guess is Deep and Wide? It says deep and wide over and over and over and there’s all sorts of great hand motions to accompany it. Anyone? Isn’t it funny how little songs like that stick with you (even if the titles don’t?) Well if I had to take a guess, I would think that song is based off of Ephesians 3:17-18.
Ephesians 3:17-18 says “So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ.”
I want to love people like that: wide, long, high, deep, not just surface level, not just a little. Christ encourages us to love people like that. He loves us immensely more than we can comprehend, and I want my heart to continue to be molded into loving people the way He loves me. I love that passage, so simply put.
so this morning, I’m focusing on loving people deeper, building up His kingdom instead of my own.